Happy Wellness Wednesday fellow humans!
Wednesday's will be the day that I blog about wellness, whether that is my personal mental health journey like today, different yoga stretches for the hands and shoulders, or tips for staying healthy while living the maker life.
Anyways, it has been exciting week for me because I finally started counseling! Feelings of serious anxiety began in 2014 for me and its been a rollercoaster since then. I go days feeling fine, to having weeks of dread and panic. It makes me feel insane, it keeps me from sleeping, and it just drains all my energy away.
For a long time my husband has encouraged me to go to counseling, and honestly I've never been against it I was just scared to go to the doctor. I wrongly assumed drugs would be shoved down my throat and that's not what I wanted.
Now I'm not putting down drugs by any means, I know they help lots of people and I am so happy for people getting the help they need. For myself, I want to try learn to cope first without using a drug to suppress the things in my head.
(The above crocheted basket is a pattern I tested from RKC.Handmade and will be released soon)
So I finally gained the courage to call the doctor and discuss my options. I was really nervous, I wasn't sure how the doctor would respond to me. My main fear was that I would be treated like I'm making up my problems. That was not the case at all.
My doctor said, "You have three options: one you can do nothing and stay miserable, two you could try counseling..." He didn't have to get to the third thing, I immediately jumped at the offer of counseling. So he referred me and sent me home to wait for a phone call to set up my appointment. I received the call and the appointment was set for FIVE WEEKS LATER. I was ready to be in counseling after seeing my doctor and that five week wait lasted forever.
Fast forward to yesterday, sitting anxiously in a waiting room, unsure of what to expect.
My name was called by my new counselor and off to my first session I went.
Summary: It was GREAT. I am kicking myself for not going sooner but hey everything works out in its own timing. The first session was mostly getting to know each other but I was given some things to think about and work on. The therapist told me it sounds like I may be struggling with Panic Disorder and naming what I'm dealing with is like a weight lifted off of my shoulders. It gives me more control and understanding of what is going on in my mind and body and how I can work to fix or cope with it.
Two of the main take aways from the session were:
1. Cope, don't fight. Don't fight your panic attack but rather accept it and do something to deal with it. Lay down, breathe deeper, get a cold compress. Don't guilt yourself for the way you are feeling.
2. Practice meditation/mindful activities. I mean I already knew meditation works but it is encouraging to hear it from a trained professional and by the way people, this includes knitting and crocheting. Yarn is seriously medicine, but I'm sure you already knew that.
(I haven't fully read the book by Gala Darling but there are lots of good nuggets of info for self-love )
I hope that this was encouraging if you also struggle with mental health, or that it gives you some insight to how it feels to be struggling. I'll continue to share my journey because mental issues are more common than you'd believe and by sharing my struggles may help others who are feeling the similarly.
If you need someone to talk to or want to know more, send me an email or message me on Instagram. Thank you for reading,
P.S. My therapist asked what I like to do for fun and of course I said knit and crochet. He practically jumped out of his seat and said he was so glad he didn't have to convince me of the benefits of knitting.